The first day of school, its scary, exhilarating, fun, sad, and all-together well, interesting. New classmates are met and unfortunates are given first day homework. I want this year to be good.
Last year I focused on friends and not so much on academics, which led to my grades and GPA lowering. Was it worth it? At this point I say yes because the experiences I had with people helped me realize more about myself as a person and become more accepting about who I am, or how I perceive myself to be.
I nearly failed two classes, but pulled through at the last minute with C's, not terrible but nothing to be proud of; I could have done better. This year, I will do better.
I plan to study and work on school as much as I do my social life. I need to learn how to balance my life and make myself happy as well as others, not just the people I interact with.
Sometimes my willingness to help may come off as me being a doormat or down-to-earth or a nice person. I like to think it's mostly the good reasons, but I also know that I will let others take charge because I believe thay know better because they are better than me. This needs to change, I want to help but not at the expense of my own self esteem.
I want to not let my weight control how I act as well. For years I have defined myself as a fat girl in my mind for years, and thought that blending in would make me happier. Now I just want to be a part of something but also show that I am different.
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